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It’s a miracle! November 16, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — curliegirlie @ 1:31 am

So…this was a pretty rough week to be on a diet. I guess any week is really a tough week, come to think of it.

I had dinner out FOUR TIMES this past week. FOUR! I  tried to make good choices, and I think I did pretty well considering the choices I would have made 4 months ago.

Thursday night we went to The Elevator downtown. If you haven’t been…drop whatever you are doing and get there FAST! It is so so so good. My friend Steve is a chef there, and it is just fantastic. We had tuna tartar to start, and I had tuna brulee as my entree. Sooooo good.

Friday, I went to applebee’s with Kevin, my dad, and my dad’s new girlfriend. They apparently connected at the high school reunion this past august. She was very nice, a good conversationalist! I felt awful though, headache, sore throat, and tummy ache.  I ordered a spinach salad with grilled shrimp.  Dressing On the side.  Delish!

Saturday was AU friend thanksgiving. Good times good friends and great food! I probably ate more than i should have…but t was all so great!

So to make up for all that, I literally exercised my ass off on Sunday and today. Went to the gym Sunday, did the following:
*33 minutes on elliptical (2 miles)
*20 minutes on weight machines

After I got home, I watched some tv for a bit, then went for a walk at the homestead park with Oscar. (2 miles).

Then this morning I did the same thing at the gym:
*33 minutes on the elliptical (2 miles)
*20 Minutes on weight machines

Then on my lunch break I took a 30 minute walk around a pond.

Was it all for naught?! NO!! At my weigh in tonight, I lost 3 lbs this week! Yay! Whoop whoop!

 

thirty is the new twenty November 2, 2010

Filed under: Weight — curliegirlie @ 1:06 pm

Weighed in last night.  I lost 3 pounds this past week.  That’s much better than the last few weeks COMBINED.  So yay!  Total loss so far is 30.4lbs.  Not too shabby!

Some things I did differently:  Exercised more. Cheated Less.  Had more confidence in my ability to do well. 

I think that last one is important.  Over the past few years, when I packed on that EXTRA extra weight (meaning I’ve always had extra, I just put on MORE than “extra”) I hoarded my “skinny” clothes.  In the back of my mind I had a  glimmering hope that I wouldn’t always be the size of Jabba the Hut, and that I would really want those cute clothes someday.  I would periodically try them on, and then get depressed that they didn’t fit, and then go on a binge.  Binging does NOTHING good for you, friends.

So, Sunday evening, I was feeling pretty good.  I had just returned from a pretty full day of chores, hiking around Antrim with Julie, Bobbie, Roxie, and O-Town, helping mom drive her boyfriend home (he is really sick!) and shopping at kohl’s.  I thought to myself, “Self? this is it.  Try them shits on!” 

I pulled out a  pair of brown goucho trousers that I had purchased right after graduating, as ‘hire-me’ clothes.  And you know what?  they TOTALLY FIT.  I even wore them to work yesterday.  It felt gooooooooood. 

I’m nowhere near my goal yet, but I have taken a nice sized chunk out of that pile. 

Ok, Back to Mike and Molly.  I’m still incensed about that article, referenced in the previous post.  I watch this show, and apparently Millions of other americans do, too!  It’s rated the second highest comedy so far.  What I find refreshing about it, is that it is REAL people.  Not supermodels.  Not skinny chick with heavier guy.  I think American identifies with it, because it is a more accurate portrait of middle america.  blahbitty blah statistics about the rise in overweight people blah blah.  

I know that I am working on my issues with weight, trying to overcome not only the physical aspects of my body, but also the mental ones.  The mental parts of the struggle are definitely more difficult and more important than the physical ones.  This is one of the main reasons that I watch the biggest loser.  Every week, Bob and Jillian try to reach a break through with one of the contestants, to make them realize WHY they have these issues.  It’s usually a deep seated emotional scarring of some sort. 

I haven’t really pinpointed my own issues yet, but a lot of it stems from feelings of inadequacy. I’m sure why, but I’ve never really felt that I was “good enough” whatever the hell that is.  I’m starting to realize that I AM worth it, I am allowed to be happy.